It’s past 2 in the morning. RJ is about to lie down in his bed when his phone suddenly rings. He gets his phone to check it. He sees Maine’s name on the screen.
“O Maine, bakit biglang — ” his sentence was cut upon hearing Maine’s loud sobbing. There was a hint of panic in her voice. He can’t catch up with what she’s trying to say.
“Listen, okay? Kalma ka muna. I’ll be there quick.” Both RJ and Maine are living now in the same condominium tower. RJ’s unit is only a few floors above Maine’s. RJ arrives at Maine’s unit in no time. In just two presses on the doorbell, Maine immediately opens the door for him. The moment RJ enters inside, Maine quickly throws her arms around his neck, squeezing him into a tight hug. She was still sobbing. He returns the hug, snaking her arms around his waist.
“Ssh, please stop crying. Please…” RJ whispers with a few light kisses on her ear. “What’s the problem?” She doesn’t answer.
RJ convinces her to go inside the mini living room for them to talk there instead. They sit on the sofa. RJ waits for Maine to calm down a little bit first. He runs his fingers through her hair then tucks it behind her ears. She just looks down, avoiding his eyes. “Meng, ano ba talaga problema? Nag-aalala na ako e.”
She slowly turns her head to his direction. Finally, she looks in his eyes. And right there, he saw it — everything. Her eyes say it all. Everything she was feeling in that moment. His immediate reaction is to pull her into a hug again, his arms around her, her head on his chest, his chin placed on her head.
“RJ…” He doesn’t respond. He just waits for her to continue. Her shoulders start shaking. She bursts into tears again. “RJ I’m pregnant.” Despite the sobbing, RJ heard it. Loud and clear. But he needs to hear it again to confirm it.
“Ano ulit, Maine?” He asks with a soft voice.
She removes his arms around her then sits straight. She looks directly at him, returning the same intensity of his gaze. “I’m pregnant. You hear me? I’m pregnant!” More tears fall. “And I freaking don’t know what to feel and what to do! I’m not yet ready to be a mother, RJ. At kahit hindi mo sabihin, alam kong ikaw din hindi pa ready!”
He’s frozen in his seat. Upon hearing that, his stomach flips and his face, hands, and feet turn ice cold. He doesn’t know what to feel. He’s amused, scared, excited, happy, nervous; it’s like feeling all kinds of feelings in that exact moment. He can’t distinguish what feeling dominates all. He’s happy at the same time not. Though maybe happiness overpowers the unhappy feeling. But Maine’s right; they’re both not yet ready.
It’s only two years and three months after AlDub happened. They’re now on the peak of their careers. Their schedules are full, still being showered with a lot of projects. But this happened. Maine being suddenly pregnant. RJ and Maine truly loves each other of course. They’re willing to wait for the right time until they can finally build their own family. But definitely not yet. Not now. Not this year or next year or next, next year. Not. She can imagine how everyone will be disappointed, including her family once they know.
Meanwhile, RJ starts to get emotional as well. He stands up, hands on his waist, then takes a really, really deep breath. He looks up, trying to prevent his tears but they just keep falling. “Huy, ano na? Ano nang plano mo?” Asks Maine with an irritated tone. “Teka, I… I need to gather my thoughts first.” Maine has calmed down while Alden is still in shock.
After a few minutes of trying to get his senses back, he turns his body to her direction then slowly kneels in front of her, holding onto her knees, meeting her eyes. “Natatakot din ako, sa totoo lang. Natatakot ako sa magiging reaksyon ng mga tao… ng mga pamilya natin. But I’m happy kasi you’re going to be the mother of my child at — ”
“Are you serious? Masaya ka? Dammit I’m not ready for this yet, okay? I’m just 23! I don’t know how to be a mother.” She starts sobbing again. “I’d love to build a family with you, RJ, but not now. In a few years, maybe yes. But please, hindi pa ngayon.” RJ pushes the back of her head until it reaches the crook of his neck. He lets her cry there while he’s stroking her hair, trying to comfort her.
He doesn’t mind her little punches on his chest. “Of course I’m not also ready to be a father yet. Pero papanindigan ko ang baby natin. Kakayanin natin to hangga’t walang bibitaw. We’re going to stay strong for our baby, Maine. We’re a team, remember? But this time, hindi na lang ikaw at ako ‘to. Kasi makakasama na natin siya. Ikaw, ako at siya — tayong tatlo; Team tayo.” His voice is calm but he can’t help but show more enthusiasm in saying the latter part. He’s getting excited more than anything else. The thought of him being a father to his and Maine’s child makes him feel giddy. “Mahal kita, alam mo yan. Always.” She pulls away from his hug then lightly pushes him.
She frowns at him but RJ finds it cute. It doesn’t scare him at all. A grin wants to escape. She punches him at his chest, this time with more force, but it doesn’t hurt him even a bit. “Ikaw kasing RJ ka e. Binuntis mo ko!”
He chuckles at her. God, she’s so cute, he thought. He cups her face then kisses her forehead then looks at her eyes, his face only an inch apart or two, their noses touching. “I wasn’t alone. You were there with me. We made him. And if that doesn’t make you feel better, just remember that our baby was made out of real love, not pure lust or alcohol or anything else. Just love.” He plants a feather light kiss on her nose. He sits beside her again. He nudges her, “tama na muna yang iyak. We should be happy that we’re going to have a baby. Sige ka, magtatampo na sayo yan.”
Her frown slowly fades. A smile cracks. “Kaya ba talaga natin? Pano yung career natin? Baka mawala lang lahat ng pinaghirapan natin RJ.”
“Ssh, ‘wag mo muna alalahanin yan. Just trust me the way you trusted me that night. I’ll do everything to give you both the best things in life.” He smiles, “I love you.”
He then kisses her stomach. “At syempre, love love love ka din ni Daddy RJ, baby. Daddy RJ’s really excited to see you,” he whispers. A tear escapes his eye. “Daddy RJ and Mommy Meng loves you. Kunwari lang yang si Mommy na ayaw niya pero love love love ka din niya. Trust Daddy, okay?” he baby talks, making Maine laugh. RJ’s with him, and that makes everything better. She doesn’t worry that much anymore. He’ll be a good dad for sure.
Now he kisses her shoulder, then her cheek, then her lips. “I love you. I’ll be a good father, I promise. I’ll love you both until my last breath,” he whispers in between their kisses. “We’re a team. We’ll stay strong for each other, yes?” She nods and kisses him more. “I promise.” She stops kissing him. “I love you, Daddy RJ.”
Oh God, I didn’t know it feels this good to be a dad. “I love you too, Mommy Meng.”
Posted: January 9, 2016 | Medium