#ILLUTION: Illusion of Emotion(s)

Emotions create the greatest illusion.

It’s been a day already but I’m still under the spell of Illution’s magic. I never expected that I’d say this but I’m so proud of being the head writer and one of the directors of Illution. I have a lot of things to say and I honestly don’t know where to begin. But I must say in the span of less than 3 weeks, the preparation for Tanghalang Tikom was such a ride. It really stirred my emotions as I went through highs and lows during the entire pre-production of the play. I’m very grateful for my blockmates’ trust in me to be the head writer of our entry for Tanghalang Tikom which was our finals requirement in our theater class. 

The concept I pitched together with my writing team is about circus/magic. But the class didn’t like the idea. Eventually we focused on the concept of magic. The class still didn’t seem happy with it. It seemed that only a few of us believed in the concept. Even though not the whole class was in favor with the concept, we still pushed for it. We revised the whole story with the help of my co-directors. I’m not sure if it’s all in my head but I could feel that some of my blockmates thought that the concept was too impossible and the story was too simple. During that time I felt so small, especially after our technical dress rehearsal. No one seemed happy with what they’ve seen. Everything was very lacking that time. And because of that I felt that everything was my fault—it was my fault that that’s only the concept I could think of, that’s only how far the story can go. I was honestly confident with the concept at first even if most of the class was against it. But because I could see the disappointment in everyone’s faces that time, or maybe that was the illsuion my emotions create in my head. Idk. But in a short span of time, the execution improved a lot. With that, my confidence with our play sparked again. 

On May 18, day of the play, the first and second run weren’t smooth and there were still a lot of things to improve and work on. I was already losing hope that time. But then the 5pm run happened. AND. IT. WAS. SPECTACULAR. I was moved and I was in awe. The audience, especially our professor who also watched during that time slot seemed impressed just like how we were. For the 7pm run, I delivered a short speech before the actual show. I almost teared up that moment. I was so proud of everyone. Standing on that stage and telling my blockmates how despite everything we went through that at some point we all felt like giving up—we managed to survive; everything was worth it. 

I’m very proud of my blockmates (Emporia Prodcutions). I’ve seen how dedicated and passionate they are in what they do. As most people say, our concept was ambitious. Not only that the concept was about magic but the theme from production design to costume and make up was also avant-garde, but we pulled it off. Being the bida-bida block that we are, we want to bring nothing but a good show for the audiences. And I’m still so amazed with how much effort were poured just to make that play that everyone deemed impossible, possible. Who would’ve thought that the ambitous concept of a magic show for a Tanghalang Tikom play would be possible??? 

I personally went through so much because of this play. I’ve lost faith in myself and I was on my lowest for quite some time. But after I’ve seen how successful Illution is, especially with the good comments and reviews here and there, I’ve gained trust in myself again. If there’s one thing I learned from all of this, it is this:

Even if things seem too impossible, continue to believe even if there’s only a tiny bit of possibility. Even if everyone is against it but you believe in it, keep pushing for it. Because you never know, it might bring magic that no one saw coming. 

Tanghalam Tikom is indeed one for the books. And with this, Illution… is signing off ✨


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