I can see from your eyes how you hard you try to hide those lies
I can feel it in your chest as we’re skin to skin;
your heart no longer beats the way it used to when I am near you.
It used to pound as if it wants to break your rib cage and get out of your chest
just to meet mine and wrap it with the warmth of yours.
I do not have the same effect on you anymore.
Now your heart is calm,
numb,
cold.
I kissed you anyway
But your lips doesn’t taste like your lips.
I felt a pang in my heart,
a punch in the pit of my stomach.
You kissed another girl before me.
I can tell that with the unusual redness and sweetness of your lips.
It was a sickening kind of sweet for I know
it was from the sweetness of the lips of another girl.
But for now,
perhaps for the last time,
let me keep kissing you.
Even until the morning, I’m more than willing to.
For I don’t know when you’ll come home next time again
or if you’ll come home to my arms ever again.